Thursday, November 14, 2013

A Day in the Life

This is my life, such as it is:



Wake up between 10:00 and 11:00, depending on what time I went to sleep (usually after 4:00). 

Drink coffee while I peruse Facebook to see what's going on in the world.  

Catch up on my games. 

Get Darcy started on her lessons, so there's a good four hours.  

Back to Facebook for news and games.  

Cook dinner. 

Watch television with David.  

More Facebook and maybe Pinterest.  

Go to bed, where I continue with Pinterest and maybe Netflix.   

Wait for tomorrow to do it all over again.  

I lead such an exciting life ... NOT!  


Friday, November 8, 2013

Keep Your Platitudes to Yourself, Please

This week was hell on me, and all because I'm a failure at the most basic of functions:  creating life.  

You see, for years upon years upon years, we tried for a baby.  We went through every test and we jumped through every hoop and yet there was simply no explanation as to why I couldn't have a baby.  I see women post things on Facebook about trying for six months and being disappointed.  Come see me when you've been trying for so long that your friends have kids who are grown and working on their own families.  

I will never, ever, ever know what it is like to create a life.  I will never know the feeling of wondering if it's butterflies or little kicks.  I will never know what it's like to hear the heartbeat of a life I've created.  I will never know what it is like to look upon a little life and know that it was created out of the love my husband and I have for each other.  

Yes, we have Darcy and are beyond blessed, but I am reminded every single day that my family is not complete.  Don't believe me?  Let's look at this week as the perfect example.  

Day 1:  friend "A" posts pics of a newborn placed in her home and I had no idea that this was even a possibility 

Day 2:  friend "B" posts pics of her newborn, and while it was expected, it still cuts through me

Day 3:  Darcy and a friend find the drawer with all of Darcy's baby memorabilia and go through all of it, oohing and ahhing over everything, bringing me things to show me how cute or how precious. 

Day 4:  at a home school function, a mom asks me which children are mine; when I point out Darcy, she responds (rather aghast), "You just have the one?"

Every single day, without fail, I am reminded of my failure to complete our family.  I can't even go on Pinterest without seeing nursery ideas or baby shower ideas or newborn photography ideas.  It certainly doesn't help that my (former) best friend is currently pregnant and is sharing that experience with the witch who caused our falling out because she, too, is pregnant.

What's that?  We can adopt again?  We can foster?  WOW!  We'd never considered that!!!  I apologize for my sarcasm (well, not really) but did you really think that these aren't things we've examined in minute detail?  Do you really think us that stupid?  Those are not options for us.  Unless a miracle happens and someone literally walks up to us and gives us a baby (and no one loves us enough to do that), I will always feel as if my family isn't complete and that I'm a failure as a woman.  Druggies and teenagers and single women everywhere can have as many kids as they want; I can't even have a second successful adoption! 

I found the following information online, and it is worth repeating:

"Infertility is, indeed, a very painful struggle. The pain is similar to the grief over losing a loved one, but it is unique because it is a recurring grief. When a loved one dies, he isn't coming back. There is no hope that he will come back from the dead. You must work through the stages of grief, accept that you will never see this person again, and move on with your life.

The grief of infertility is not so cut and dry. Infertile people grieve the loss of the baby that they may never know. They grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy's nose and daddy's eyes. But, each month, there is the hope that maybe that baby will be conceived after all. No matter how hard they try to prepare themselves for bad news, they still hope that this month will be different. Then, the bad news comes again, and the grief washes over the infertile couple anew. This process happens month after month, year after year. It is like having a deep cut that keeps getting opened right when it starts to heal."


I've received some really, really bad advice this week, so let me tell you what NOT to say.  Do not tell me that this is God's plan for my life.  Do not presume to know what God is thinking.  Also, do not tell me that I should just pray about it some more because it will all work out.  More than a decade of prayer has been out into this already; at this point, my faith is fairly shattered and it would literally take a miracle for restoration.  I don't need to hear that we should look into adoption or fostering or that there's still time.  Time is not on our side.  

Just be there.  Don't give platitudes or unsolicited advice.  Just recognize the pain and the grief.  With the exception of two people, no one that I know has ever gone through the exact same situation.  There is no way you could possibly know what to say; I'd much rather you stay silent than insult me with clichés about God's timing or advice on foster care.  Short of giving us a child, there's not a single thing you can say or do.  To make it easier, I'll refrain from posting any comments about my bitterness over how I have been devinely failed.  


Monday, October 28, 2013

You Truly Have NO Idea

This is as good as it gets for me.  This is what it is - constant physical pain and the emotional pain that stems from it.  Some people have said to me that if I don't like the way my life is that I should change it.  To them I say, how can I change a disease that researchers didn't even put a  name to until 1981?  I have tried every known medication, homeopathics, supplements, acupuncture, massage therapy (both regular and pressure point), chiropractors, rheumatologists, internists ... the list goes on and on.  I have multiple chronic illnesses.  That is my life.  This is my life. 

I ask, do you honestly know what all the symptoms are for Fibromyalgia?  I doubt it.  You probably think it is occasional pain.  It is so much more than that.  Let me give you a partial list of symptoms (and these are just the ones that affect me; I'm not even listing the symptoms from chronic fatigue, myofascial pain syndrome, generalized anxiety disorder, depression, or insomnia - all things I have been diagnosed with):
  1. Delayed reactions to physical exertion or stressful events  
  2. Cravings for carbohydrate and chocolate 
  3. Headaches & migraines
  4. Vision changes, including rapidly worsening vision
  5.  Pain that ranges from mild to severe, and may move around the body
  6. Morning stiffness
  7. Muscle twitches
  8. Allergies
  9. Mold sensitivity
  10. Earaches & itchy ears
  11. Ringing ears (tinitis)
  12. Light and/or broken sleep pattern with unrefreshing sleep
  13. Fatigue
  14. Sleep starts (falling sensations)
  15. Twitchy muscles at night
  16. Teeth grinding (bruxism)
  17.  Short-term memory impairment
  18. Confusion
  19. Trouble concentrating
  20. Staring into space before brain "kicks in" 
  21. Sensitivity to odors
  22. Sensitivity to pressure changes, temperature & humidity
  23. Sensitivity to light
  24. Sensitivity to noise
  25. Panic attacks
  26. Depression (as an overlapping condition)
  27. Tendency to cry easily
  28. Free-floating anxiety (not associated with situation or object)
  29. Mood swings
  30. Unaccountable irritability
  31.  Pain that mimics heart attack, frequently from costochondritis (as an overlapping condition)
  32. Pronounced nail ridges
  33. Bruising or scarring easily
  34. Tissue overgrowth (non-cancerous tumors called lipomas, ingrown hairs, heavy and splitting cuticles) 
  35. Reduced ability to get pregnant

Quite a list of symptoms, isn't it?  I have friends who complain about the following all the time:  allergies, headaches, weight, etc.  Why are you allowed to complain about these trivial things and I'm not allowed to complain about something chronic?  

If you have allergies, you take a pill and you know that they will go away. 
If you have a headache, you take a pill and you know that it will go away. 
Break a bone?  Have it set and know it will heal.
Overweight?  Change your diet and see results.
Out of shape?  Exercise and see results.

Fibro?  Not a damn thing in the world will help.  There is no pill, no doctor, no food, no exercise, no anything that will make it better.  The pain is always, always there and it will always, always be there.  

I track my pain levels.  I chart them daily, along with weather conditions and other external factors (stress, lack of sleep, etc.).  I have done this since before I was ever diagnosed with FMS.  I can honestly say that for years now, there has not been one single day where I have been free from pain. If you look at the pain scale in the app I use, my pain is never below a 4.  Ever.  For the past six weeks or so, my pain level has been more consistently around a 7. 

0)  Pain free
1)  Very minor annoyance
2)  Minor annoyance
3)  Annoying enough to be distracting
4)  Can be ignored if you are really involved in something, but still distracting
5)  Can't be ignored for more than 30 minutes
6)  Can't be ignored for any length of time
7)  Makes it difficult to concentrate, interferes with sleep; can function with effort
8)  Physical activity severly limited.
9)  Unable to speak; crying out or moaning uncontrolably
10) Pain makes you pass out

FMS does not cause depression but you try living in constant pain every second of every day for years and tell me how great your attitude is.  That effort that it takes to function at a Level 7 of pain is emotionally and mentally exhausting.  So, please, forgive me if my status updates about my life annoy you.  Your "things will be brighter tomorrow" crap just pisses me off because I know that you have no idea what I am dealing with.  I truly hope you never, ever have to deal with the things I deal with on a daily basis. 

Thursday, September 12, 2013

eGADs! I have GAD!

Generalized Anxiety Disorder, aka GAD, is something I've become way too familiar with over the past two years.  For me it manifests in two main ways.  

The first major effect of GAD on my life is anxiety, often leading to panic attacks.  I've learned what several of my "triggers" are and I can avoid those situations when possible, but that's not always the case.  

For example, I had to attend a memorial service for an extended family member last week.  Being around groups of family members is one of those triggers (even very small groups freak me out).  I had to resort to anti-anxiety medication which gives me horrible side effects, so much so that I would almost rather have a full out panic attack that results in another visit to the ER. 

My first signal of a panic attack is the feeling of anxiety or dread, followed by the numbing of my left arm.  I get very shaky and clench my fists repeatedly.  My breathing increases and I feel faint.  I have heart palpitations so bad that it feels like a heart attack. 

Other triggers are having to go to the local Air Force base, doing anything with anyone from the school district where I used to work, and sometimes there are just the unknown triggers that randomly appear.  Fun times, my friends.  

The second major effect that GAD has had on me is I am now very easily overwhelmed, to the point where I cannot function.  I used to be able to organize and multitask like a champion, but now it just bogs me down.  

Take today, for instance.  I have so much on my plate today that I literally am just in tears.  I want to crawl back in to bed and throw the covers over my head and hide.  I know everyone gets overwhelmed, but for me it makes me crater into a black hole.  There's nothing to do about it, either.  

It sucks, this GAD.  

For more information on GAD:  http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/index.shtml

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Lesson #1: No TV (and let go of the cat)

I heard and saw a lot (a LOT) of things during my time as a public school teacher.  I taught grades 7, 9, 10, 11, and 12.  I am now teaching my daughter at home, and it's grade 3.  I think it is the toughest grade yet (and this includes those Advance Placement classes).  There are just things that happen at home that don't happen in the classroom.  For example, not once did I ever have to say any of the following things to a student:

  • Let the cat out of the closet and come do your work.
  • No playing until your lessons are done (okay, maybe I used that one at school).
  • Come back in the house and finish your work... and let the cat go.
  • No, I won't text your friend's mom to see if your friend can play.  Go do your work.
  • No, I won't be your secretary and write the answers for you so that you can hold your cat.
  • Turn off the television.
That last one was the first big lesson for Darcy today.  She wanted to do her math test in her room.  I'm not a stickler about where she does her work; I just want her to do it.  After a little while I walked by her room and noticed she was doodling on her clipboard rather than taking her test AND the television was on.  I told her to turn it off and finish her test.  A few minutes later I went in to check on her and the TV was still on.  Ugh!   I turned it off and told her to finish up and bring me her test. 

Worst. 
Grade. 
Ever. 

That child was so distracted that she missed a dozen questions on greater than and less than (which she knows), and she skipped 33 multiplication problems (the easy ones - you know, multiplying by ones, fives, and tens).  Her grade was a big, fat "F."  David stopped by to make sure the cable guy knew what all he wanted to have done and he and I decided that we wouldn't say anything until after she finished all of her work for the day. It took the rest of the day to get her work done and it was after dinner before I could talk to her.

Did you hear the wailing from where you are?  If you didn't, I'm surprised.  I showed her the paper and her grade and I explained that because she had the television on that she was distracted and missed questions that she shouldn't have.  I also got on to her about completely skipping over 30 problems just because she didn't want to do them or didn't ask what she needed to do.  I told her no television for the rest of tonight and she wailed - sobbing, inconsolable, heart-wrenching, wailing - for over an hour.  She threw herself on her bed for a while, retreated to her tree house, shut herself in the guest room, and lay on the couch with pillows over her head, all while crying hysterically.  David and I both tried to tell her that she had her punishment and that she had learned her lesson, but she just wouldn't stop crying.  I swear, the kid punishes herself so much worse than we ever would (which is why only one night without television is appropriate for her). 

She's okay now, but I'm really hoping we don't have another day like this for a while.  Those crying jags are rough.  I don't know how elementary teachers handle stuff like that.  This is definitely not a problem I ever had when teaching in public school.   Home school is most definitely an adventure, even for the cat!




Sunday, September 8, 2013

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things ... To Hate

So lately I've been in a really rotten mood.  REALLY ROTTEN.  Frankly, I don't care that I'm in a rotten mood except it means that everything gets on my nerves a little more than usual.  By nature, I am misanthropic and that serves me well since developing Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  But I digress... 

I have decided to list some of the many things that I hate.  I mean, I may as well have fun with my rotten mood.  So, here they are, in no particular order:

1.  Professional sports

2.  Idiots who give play-by-play Facebook updates about their favorite sports teams.  

3.  People who respond to a text with the single letter "k."  

4.  iPhone cords that only work for a couple of weeks and then die.  

5.  Buying new iPhone cords constantly.  

6.  People who smack their food.   

7.  People who don't smack their kids when the kids obviously need it.  

8.  People who cannot park.  

9.  People who are either stupid, lazy, or both when it comes to the English language.  

10.  Not having a disposable income.  Oh, wait, make that not having an income at all. Being poor sucks. 

11.  Pennies.  They are useless.  

12. Mosquitos, fleas, ticks, and gnats serve no purpose and should be eradicated.  

13.  People who meet you once and think they are your new BFF.  I had a BFF once.  I'll let you know if I decide to take applications for a new one.  

14.  All those "Like this if you ..." posts on Facebook.  Enough already!  

15.  Infertility and the unholy cost of adoption, both literally and figuratively.  

16. Cruelty to animals.  

17. That horrid ASPCA commercial with Sarah Maclaughlin.  The remote doesn't work fast enough.  

18.  People who think they have to try to cheer you up when you are having a rotten day.  Rotten was quite fine for Oscar the Grouch, you know.  

19.  Change.  

20.  Insomnia.  

21.  Living in Abilene.  I mean, of all the places on the planet that there are to live, why on earth am I living here?  Oh yeah, that money issue.  

22.  Psychopathic people who make it so that my kid can't even go to a birthday party because there are psychos there.  

Eh, I'm sure I'll add more to the list but the phone charger cord thingy is being crappy and so every two minutes my phone connects and then disconnects from the charger and that is getting on my last nerve.  

So, what things do you hate?  








Thursday, August 22, 2013

End of Summer Vacation, Day 3


How worn out am I?  Whatever you are thinking, quadruple it and then multiply that times seventeen.  You're half way close to how worn out I am.  

We woke up around 9:00 and I started packing while the fam went to breakfast. It took a while to get everything packed up.  How does so much stuff accumulate in just a couple of days?   

After a few wrong turns (always listen to the wife) we went back to Sea World.  David was able to upgrade our tickets to season passes for only $13, so now we can go back as often as we can afford.  Yay!  
We caught Shamu's show and another showing of Pets Ahoy.  My butt was draggggggging.  
They left me and went to ride the Rio Loco raft ride.  I just couldn't keep up.  The ride broke down just as they were about to get on but they only had a delay of a few minutes.  
David rode the Great White roller coaster alone while the girls checked out the conservation station.  As we were looking at the Florida Kingsnake exhibit, a trainer came up behind us with another snake to add to the exhibit.  Thankfully, I didn't scream.  He let Darcy touch the snake.  I declined.  A lot.  
From there Darcy decided she wanted to do some shopping, so we worked our way counter-clockwise around the park.  She ended up buying stuffed animals (big surprise) of Shamu and a mama and baby sea turtle.  

It was quitting time for us, so we loaded up and headed back to I-10.  We stopped at Mimi's Café for a wonderful dinner.  
From here we are headed home.  I'm pretty sure that three girls will sleep while the bald man drives.  

Hey!  No bug bites today!  Whoop!  


Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Our End of Summer Vacation, Day 2

I love staying in hotels.  I love the cold, dark rooms.  I love that you can sleep late and no one cares.  Well, unless you have to get up and see the sights, and then people care.  

We got up at 9:00 and I sent the family down for breakfast with instructions to bring me back a bagel and cream cheese.  I wasn't specific about a drink and that scared me a little after last night's episode (I reminded them it was last call for the soda machine and popcorn; they went down and returned with sodas for everyone except me).  They did well, though, bringing me me what I requested plus a muffin and orange juice.  Go family!
We looked at the map and decided to start at Hemisfair Park.  The plan was to see the Institute of Texas Culture and then the Tower of the Americas.  
We found this little bear statue that was donated by Berlin in 1968.  David enjoyed looking at all the old buildings on our way through the park.  It's a really pretty park with lots of water features and historic buildings; Darcy saw an awesome playground.  Emma played photographer and caught some pics of Darcy.  
Truth be told, we "saw" the institute, but didn't get to tour it.  There was construction all around it and I didn't want to try to walk through it all only to find out we couldn't get through and have to walk back. That will have to wait for another trip.  

Side note:  Darcy kept asking to do things and I kept telling her no.  I was told that I suck all the joy out of life.  This would come back to haunt her at lunch.  

We bought our tickets for the Tower and whooshed our way to the top.  Emma and I enjoyed finding landmarks and identifying them.  David and I used the opportunity to get our bearings for the day. 
They had a claw machine that both girls just had to play, and they also found a defective Zoltar fortune teller.  He was out of fortunes and just took their money.  I swear, though, if I wake up in the morning and I have two thirty-year-old girls in the next bed, I'm suing Tom Hanks.  

Something new to David and me was the Skies over Texas 4D movie ride.  It's a cute little 15 minute movie that gives an aerial tour of the state; however, the seats move and there are interactive effects (let me just warn you about covering your mouth when the bull sneezes).  The girls found cute trinkets that they were able to buy courtesy of Granny and Papa, and of course you can't go to a souvenir shop and not try on hats!  
From there we hoofed it over to the Alamo.  It was so dang humid that when Darcy suggested snow cones, we agreed.  David was excited about the Alamo because of the historical aspect; Darcy was excited because of the feline aspect.  
As part of our unit on historical fiction, Darcy and I read Alamo Cat by Rita Kerr. Although it is fiction, it is based on fact.  It is the story of Ruby LeGato, a kitten found by a night patrolman at the Alamo. She was given special permission by the DRT to live on the grounds, and had the only known babies to ever be born there.  She lived at the Alamo from 1981-1986, and she is buried there near the security building.  As soon as Darcy found out that Ruby was a real cat and is really buried at the Alamo, her mission became one of finding the grave and leaving a flower for Ruby.  Fortunately, we were able to do that even though it is in an area for personnel only.  We found an employee on his lunch break near Ruby and after explaining our request, he let Darcy in (notice the tiny purple flower on the grave).  
When we were researching the real Ruby, we found out that there is a new Alamo cat whose name is CiCi.  We asked about her at the gift shop and the employee went and found her for us.  She isn't always up for visitors (she's 17, I believe) but today she was feeling good and we got to meet her.  We bought a book about her as our souvenir.  

Now we could finally tour the shrine.  I enjoyed it because I was able to point out facts to Darcy from our reading.  Our current book is Girl of the Alamo by Rita Kerr, and it is the story of Susannah Dickinson's experience at the battle.  I was able to point out names from the story and Darcy knew whom I was talking about and his part in the battle.  

Darcy was starting to get a little cranky and we decided we needed a break.  Emma had been to San Antonio a couple of summers ago with her dad and they ate at Dick's Last Resort.  She told Darcy about how rude the waiters are and so the girls decided that we had to eat there for lunch.  After another long walk, we found the restaurant and had a blast!  
Each kiddo got a balloon animal and our server was appropriately rude.  Since it was after 2:00 it wasn't crowded at all and we had a lot of one-on-one time with our server.  The girls got bibs, Darcy's drink had about a dozen straws in it, the server wouldn't let her order chicken tenders (she settled on ribs), and he gave Darcy a balloon.  Darcy made him a card that he took to the next table and loudly announced that he was going to read his letter.  This is what he read:

Front:  This letter is from your friend. Read the back.  
Back:  You stink!  :(

Well, you can imagine his feigned shock and horror!  He immediately stood up and made her a hat.  
Since Darcy got a hat, he decided Emma needed a little something, too.  He took her to the back and they stayed gone for about five minutes.  When they came back, this is what we saw: 
He said that now we knew what a real air head looked like.  Emma wore her balloon hair the entire rest of the day. The server did sneak up on her and pop one balloon when she wasn't looking, and on the way out of the restaurant another server popped another one.  Everywhere we went after that, people would comment on Emma's hair and I don't know how many asked to take a photo.  I keep telling her that we will probably see her on Pinterest soon (she even went swimming with the three remaining balloons in her hair, although the number went down to two in the pool).  
Lunch revived us all and so we grabbed a red bus to the mercado.  Everyone enjoyed shopping in the little stores.  I found a scarf, Darcy got some teeny tiny guitars for her Littlest Pet Shop world, and Emma found a really cute dress.  
It was now 5:00 and we were all worn down.  We took the red bus back to the hotel and made a brief stop at Walgreens for some Benadryl spray. My stupid bee-stung arm is a mess.  Oh!  I also got bit by a fire ant on my ankle when we were waiting at a bus stop.  I'm a doofus.  
We hit the manager's reception for drinks and snacks, then came up to the room to relax.  My cousin Beau is in town with a friend, so David got to visit with him in the lobby while the girls swam in the rooftop pool (not as cool at night, I'm told).  Unfortunately, I'm out for the day. My body can only take so much before it tells me very, very loudly that I have gone too far.  I plan on taking a hot shower and staying in bed for the rest of the night.  I may have to pretend to be a kid at Sea World tomorrow so that I can ride in a stroller if I can't walk.  I'm only half kidding!  

David has taken the girls to see the river walk at night and they want to go back to the tower if they can go by river taxi.  I hope they have fun and take photos for me to see.  




You can read a little about Ruby and CiCi here:  http://www.purr-n-fur.org.uk/featuring/mus11.html


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Our End of Summer Vacation, Day 1

After going to bed at 1:30, the 5:30 alarm came way too early. So early, in fact, that David hit the snooze until 6:00.  Nothing like a late start to fuel the adrenaline.  

I managed to get a shower, strip all the beds, get the laundry half done, and unload the dishes before we hit the road half an hour late at 7:00.  The one thing that ticked me off was that I didn't have time to do my makeup.  It put me in a really bad mood, but by the time we were on the road I was better.  
Our first stop was at Walmart in Brady.  Yup, we know how to vacation!  David needed headphones and Emma needed a visor and sunglasses.   I'm so glad she is with us for this trip.  We have missed her so stinking much!  
Darcy found a headband she just had to have.  Me, I bought clothespins to keep all the bags of snack food closed (plus the curtains in hotel rooms always seem to have a gap and it's great to be able to pin them closed).  

Well, the late start combined with the unexpected trip to Walmart and a missed exit made us get to Sea World later than expected.  We had wanted to feed the dolphins at 11:30 but missed that and bought tickets for the 1:30 feeding.  
Two things we didn't realize:
1.  Sea World closes at 6:00 and there are limited shows, and
2.  Our tickets are for two days!!!  

The NEW plan is to come back on Thursday and spend a second day here before heading home.  We can catch anything we missed and do fun things again.  

Darcy has already decided she wants to come back for one of their Halloween events.  Guess I will be having more 31 parties!  

First stop, after buying tickets to feed the dolphins, was the new Pets Ahoy show.  It was fun seeing trained pigs, ducks, and cats.  I mean, I know you can train dogs and rats, but cats?!?!
Next up was the shark tank followed by the dolphin touch.  
The girls LOVED the dolphin touch.  Darcy said the dolphin felt like a boiled egg.  The trainer said she had never heard that one before.  I'll have much better photos to post when we get home.  We were able to buy the photos that Sea World took but they are on a disc.  
We boogied over to the sea lion show, which has always been my favorite.  I will always call it Uncle Shmedly's Spooky Kooky Castle, regardless of what its current name is.  I miss Shmedly.  He was cooler than Max.  
Everyone really wanted to ride the Steel Eel.  Everyone except Darcy.  I was really bummed because it was a super short wait, but she refused.  I even tried to tell her that I drive faster than the coaster goes, but she wasn't having it.  David and Emma rode it while I played babysitter to the chicken.  
Next up was the penguin and puffer exhibit.  It wasn't as stinky as usual, which was good.  I must say we picked an excellent day to come.  The weather wasn't too hot and the wait times for rides were only five minutes.  
Of course, Sea World has to have the arcade and of course they have to have pillow pets the size of a SUV, so of course we had to play one round of ring toss.  No one won the giant pillow pet (they were out of the turtles anyway) but Darcy did get this little elephant.  
Immediately after I took this picture, a cute little bee decided to land on me and stung the fire out of my underarm.  David and Emma had just gotten off the log ride (another refusal of Darcy) so everyone got to hear me say a naughty word and Darcy tattled on me to my parents just as soon as she could (nothing too horrible, but still).  
 
I meandered over to first aid (I'm not allergic but I wanted a Benadryl just to be on the safe side, plus that thing hurt like a bad mammajamma) while David and the kids got snacks and found a seat for Azul, the beluga whale show.  I got back just as the show started - perfect timing.  
Our last show of the day was the main event, Shamu!  Even though we sat in the splash zone, we were lucky enough not to get splashed. 
The park closed at 6:00 and leaving was really easy.  We truly picked the perfect day to come!  After figuring out which hotel we were staying at and battling over using the GPS versus the iPhone, we made our way to our hotel on the river walk.  I highly recommend Drury Plaza.  It will be the only hotel we stay at on the river walk from now on.  Seriously, if you are headed to San Antonio, stay here and you won't regret it. 
It is now 8:30 and David is about to take the girls swimming at the rooftop pool on the 22nd floor.  I am staying in the room and recharging my batteries for tomorrow.  Little sleep, walking all over Sea World twice, a bee sting, and a sunburn have taken their toll on this old lady.  I'm not moving until morning!